Thanks to the people who remembered. Haha. Thanks phantoms of the night. ;)

Those carefree days that once were; where thou art go?

guitar is hard. so hard.

this is the first time my "anyhow-make" noodles turned out not up to par.

disappointing..

overcooked noodles and too much of it too. wonder why since i used only 1 packet per person.

shall take note.

never taken drugs or any psychedelics before.

but i have to say, the most uplifting feeling/transcending feels is being intoxicated and listening to music.

not any music in particular though. music, real music.

That one spotlight of orange from the corner of the room, the decent enough dual driver earphones, the cheap not too shabby bottle of wine.

its better than any drug i guess.

close your eyes.

melt away.

now if only it isnt 30 degrees and with 80% humidity. wheres my winter when i need it.

I really loathe our country for having no seasons.

i miss the world. sadly, that feeling only goes one-way.

i must perfect a new song every month.

Its pouring.

more than ever before.

that thunderous roar, gushing waters.

so soothing.

looking up at the orange-purple night sky.

Shes kinda perfect if you see her as i see her, hear her as i hear her.

날 사랑하지 마

So lonely.

Finally recovered.

Tomorrow's breakfast will be a good one. I'm sure of it.

Bacon, Portobello, eggs, asparagus, cherry tomatoes and some toasted muffins/bread.

isnt this suppose to be a time of celebration? chugging down beers and enjoying that smooth feeling down your throat.

Yet i'm down with this bug.

Been a horrible few days. Hopefully will get better soon.




It's gets so lonely out in space, on such a timeless space.

Its gonna be a long long time.

so i made bacon today.

you know, those kind that are wrapped around asparagus and poked through with a toothpick kind. Wanted to recreate what i ate in Taiwan a few years back, sadly i do not have the honey sauce that they use to lather the bacon bundles of joy to make it even tastier. Actually i can make that too, but after just waking up, its too much of a hassle. Decided to poach some eggs instead to compliment the savoriness of the bacon.

Great idea.

Poor execution.

The bacon was spot on. My first egg was oooook, i guess. At least it was nicely wrapped by the white, then i decided to learn from Ramsay and put it on a tissue to take out the excess water. He did it so elegantly and everything turned out so well. For me? The egg and tissue fused into one. Almost broke the yolk just trying to separate them. In the end, the yolk was exposed as the white decided to stick with the tissue instead of the yolk. My second egg, I broke the yolk. My third egg, it sank to the bottom and somehow got too cooked and it was half boiled half soft.

Back to the drawing board i guess.

pulled out the bottle of gold.

sometimes i wonder, how it would be like if we lived in a country with 4 seasons.

i miss the winter's cold. when drinking makes everything alright.

그대는 너무 아름답죠

i finished learning the song. but will you listen to me play?

Decisions, choices. These are the things that we have the power to control. Yet with that power, we often do not possess the wisdom to choose wisely.

Over the past year or so, there have been many questionable choices and decisions made. Some bordering on stupidity even crossing that line a few times.

Yet time moves on. We can look back and say we will do better, but ultimately u have to make it happen.


This might be last trip alone in some time to come, its really time to dig deep and stop being delusional. Hard work has to be put in, and maybe for once, things will take a turn for the better.

슬픈예감.

보고싶어.




나보고싶어?

몰라요....

As with all things, the process to becoming better is always the toughest.

I've never heard silence.
Till I heard it today.

It is not sudden.

definitely not.

Excuse me please, one more drink.
Could you make it strong,
Cause I don't need to think.

I don't know.

There is nothing more powerful than those words. 

I'm looking for a distraction.

How this world keeps spinning around

You. You were a friend. You were a friend of mine I let you spend the night
You see how it was my fault. Of course it was mine.
I'm too hard at work. Have you ever heard of anything so absurd ever in your life.
I'm sorry for wasting your time.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's my job to make the most of it
Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me. Not that easy.
Hey what's that you say? You're not blaming me for anything that's great
But I don't break that easy. Does it fade away?
So that's why I'm apologizing now for telling you I thought that we could make it
I just don't get enough to believe that we've both changed.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's my time to make the most of it
How could I ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no
All along the fault is up for grabs why don't you have it
Well it's for sale go make your offer, I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.

Well neither one of us deserves the blame because opportunities moved us away
And it's not an easy thing to learn to play a game that's made for two that's you and me
The rules remain a mystery. See it can be easy.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's our time to make the most of it
How could we ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no
All along the fault is up for grabs and there you have it
Well it's for sale go make your offer, I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.

Just. wow.

I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay;
given you a reason to stay;
Given you a reason to stay

i am giving you a reason now.
will you stay?

I think i will have a shorter life compared to most.

When we allow ourselves to be consumed by hate or angry, we become blind. Blind to the inconsequential things that are reaching out to apologize, albeit subtle. We choose to believe we are so wronged, why can't we all just make space for forgiveness and swallow that bit of pride. And if not at least speak your mind, it's stupid to do neither and wallow in self pity.

Much respect for this man.

Even more for his music.

yes i agree.

Life is no more the negation of death than death the affirmation of life.

Death is basically the lack of life, just as darkness is the lack of light. They are not opposites, just one lacking the other. While death can be proof of life once existed, but it is you the person that controls when it comes. To some, it comes with age; others with sickness. To those few, it comes with the inability to move on. Before they know it, they are long gone; empty vessels that remain.

when i die, i want to die listening to music. listening to good music. at least i wont feel a thing that way.

Andskotann Hægt

난 지금껏 헤매다가
이렇게
겨우 여기에 왔는데
난 지금 여기가 바보처럼
어디인지 몰라요

i don't know where i am anymore.

So blue my heart of the pain of love,
That the red of my blood turns green
In the envy of its displeasure!

of course, history never fails to repeat.

because fuck it all.

thats why.

Addiction is not something we can overcome. Its a disease, without a cure. We do our best to suppress it, to keep it to a minimum. We remove ourselves from situations, from objects that may trigger us off. Yet at the end of it all, despite the strongest support from friends and family it just takes everything to line up together in one big curve ball of shit that life throws at you and you see yourself acting out again.

People say they understand, but in fact, they do not. No one understands, except for yourself. But they do help distract you; and point you towards other things in life that you may not have found out by yourself. If you are lucky, these other things may actually be the important things in life. Those are the kind of friends that you should keep then.

Goodbye blue cyan shoes.

보고싶어

To sum up 2013,

I shall use the word, "unexpected".

Cheers to a new year =)