i never thot i will do it, but i decided to make a stand and stick with it.

i told u, mg, i am changing who i am.

i told her how i feel and how i think this is not right. basically i confronted her to put an end to this.

Of course i will miss someone taking so good care of me. but its still for the better because eventually it most probably would not end well.

but at the moment it seems to be heading for a bad bad crash.

something is wrong with me today.

i am brazen, insensitive and shoots of comments like a bullet.

I am a better person than this.

Whats wrong. do i know? or i just choose to not want to acknowledge it.

Its not right. i should not. These are words that i should be telling myself. While i have not done anything wrong, i haven done anything right either. Doing nothing in itself is a sin i suppose. Maybe another time, another place but definitely not now. On a side note, its been awhile since i felt so lost. also been awhile since i have been this close. watch yourself yj.

It's a new day, a new start!

oh who am i kidding.

because eventually we all land in 'london' and all we think about is, ....

the rain pelts endlessly upon the window panes, a cacophony of knocks that fill a dark and gloomy night. The reddish-purplish hue splashed upon the canvas we call the sky with flashes that translate into the a thunderous boom; it does not seem that the night will ever end. But eventually, the dawn breaks bringing light onto the gloomy skies, dispersing away what is left of the night before. Because with time, even the biggest of storms have to end, even the darkest of skies have to make way for the sun.

But where is thy sun?

As the pitter patter subsides, all we hear are the cars driving by. Because that is how it is. Life moves on no matter what. Even during the storm, cars just keep driving by albeit a little slower, but still, moving forward.

But thy car is just a bicycle, slow, unsteady and unprotected.

Even with the rain gone, a stroke of lightning just happened before my very eyes. Because, in life, surprises are aplenty and it can hit u anytime. Even when you are prepared for it, when it hits, you realize that you can never actually prepare for it.

because when u are feeling lonesome, the guitar just produces nice sounds.

I tried to catch the orange hue that enveloped the HDB blocks but failed. This was my best effort i took after a few tried with my Galaxy S2.

Even as i am preparing for my last paper for this semester, I started to wander off to the past once again. Are memories just life's way of mocking us at things we will not be able to have again. Even with that broken camera in my mind, it somehow manages to maintain bits and pieces of the not so distant past, those with joy and happiness. As it brings a smile to the face, as it fades, the smile fades as well.

Just like clouds, we meet and part without knowing when we will meet again. And like the lightning flashes in the sky, those are fleeting moments when we think of each other. The split second thought or connection that happens oh so randomly; jolting you with a brief moment of joy before leaving you scarred and burnt as it sears into your mind.

Oh lonely soul, where shall you go.