to see each day through the eyes of a different person.

that will be interesting.

Goodbye little brown cat, it was nice to meet you again after 2 years. Though on most days I cannot find you, but on the days i do, you brighten my day a little to make it bearable.

The awesome Lib Sun team! Right to left, Ramesh, me, Uncle Ong, Rasu and Maran

Sammy!

My wonderful mentors in the welding section who taught me so much in such a short period of time, Seow Huat and Zay.

It has been an interesting 3 months at the shipyard and definitely a very tiring internship. the early mornings and late overtime nights. It finally concluded with smiles, handshakes and pats on the back. Its funny to see the hierarchy of the entire system and understand how they think about the company.

Of course bias-ness aside, you can clearly see a distinct gap in their mindsets. With the higher management encouraging me to stay and the workers telling me to run as far as i possibly can. But I still have 2 years to go and Europe before that, so i do not think i will rush into any decision just yet; this to me is just an experience, something for me to look back upon to think about and also to see what kind of life would be like in the marine industry.

They say to not dwell too long in your thoughts; to plan meticulously, to play out all possible moves, to try and foresee what will happen because that opportunity might just pass you by. Opportunity comes in different shapes and sizes, business deals, job offers, someone special, a rare and suspicious deal; but how do we make sound judgement? There is no guarantee at all! No, foresight does not cut it. 

Maybe there is no sound judgement. It is just how you play your cards as the situation plays out. Looking back in hindsight, you observe and learn what could be different, yet with different decisions you can never know where those will lead too.

Nonetheless, its still fun to ponder. Its a world where nothing can be made into something and possibilities are everything. But never let the lines between reality and virtual be blurred. 

"So is there any chance, that you, might, kind of, sort of,.. you know,.. like me, or..?"

not anxious to die, just anxious to matter.

and so it is.

was.

will be.

Its sad to part, despite knowing that we will meet again; because it will not be the same. this void of time, can never be replaced, it can only be imagined. Its true that old friends pick up where they left off but nothing can ever fill up this empty space of lost time.

like clouds, we part and meet, but never the same shape and size.

am i sad? of course i am. its rhetorical that i refuse to answer it. but the joy i have far exceeds that of sadness. Joy, because i know my friend will be moving on to greater things, closer to achieving what he wants to become.

Because as selfish i wish i could be, to want people close to me to always be around, i know its just naive thinking. Why would i want to be the chain that hold them down? I should be the giant fan that fan their flames, in hope that they would be mine as well.

so i would say go for it, ys.

same goes for u mj. doubt u even read here anymore. Thanks for everything. i sincerely wish you the best for your 2 years further studies. Maybe you can finally fulfill your full potential without that ball and chain that held you back for so long.

because of you, i've packed away that tiny box of emotion. detached myself from that dreadful feeling of losing something again.

no lights,
eyes closed,
just guitar.

at peace. yet still feels incomplete.

let the sandman take you away.

i think you are awesome.

Life is only made meaningful and joyful when you go out for a good dinner, have some casual drinks and return home to read.

haha. =).

then u read something else like, "I think the opposite of happiness isn't sadness, it's the fear of happiness."

and it makes you ponder again.

its the fear of losing that happiness, but ironically just through that simple thought, you just made it come true.